Day 4 -Tues 5th May

WEIGH IN

7:47am 200.4 -3.4 lb gone

That’s 8lb fine in 3days really cos this is the start of Day 4 – WOW

PRAYER: Dear God I’m not too sure about a lot of anything but I am sure that YOU are there – I need the fruit of self control and I am growing in this by controlling my body now my mind and my feeling and emotions need to follow – what I feel is out of control weather I k is or don’t I lay it all at the foot of the cross ✝️ Lord be my source my strength my everything

THOUGHTS

HUNGER LEVEL

FEELINGS : I feel really great about the fast it’s going so well – I finished day 3 strong in regards to fasting – personally was back to crying and feeling frustrated – Sometimes you can just love someone so much and not really understand why it feels impossible to walk away – felt like God why I feel like I’m crying with him & crying without him – so what do I do ?? More tears more prayer more digging deep … in day 4 now reading a book WILL POWER

PICTURES

You can’t quite see it yet but I can feel that the tummy is starting to go down – it’s deflating in the front and the wheels are ever slightly smaller – I’m encouraged still a long way to go

Day 3 – May 4 2020

Down -2.6

WEIGH IN:

Time : 5:37am – 203.8 DOWN -2.6 lb

THOUGHTS

well today was day 3 – I wasn’t hungry at all but missed eating it was more brain hunger than anything but kept telling myself this is no reason to quit I’ve been reading a book on self control and will power some insightful thoughts that are helpful … the day is winding down and I feel good not weak I’m not tired in fact I was up at 4 am this morning and not sleepy – so yeah energy is ok – I’m trying to be mindful and focus on my end goal but still stay in the present of today reminding myself that His grace is sufficient for each day .. and if I make it through each day I will eventually get to the goal

PRAYER

my prayer today is to lean harder into You God … I’m not walking in my strength knowing that Your Grace is sufficient for me

I stand on 1 Corr 12:9 and claim it as my truth

Amen

EXCERCISE-50 Squats & 500skips

going to try to do this as my daily routine for next 29 days after – need to get my legs back and more !

A girl looks better with clothes on πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
BUT wow – I cant feel my legs – ouch but good !

HUNGER-

FEELINGS – Nothing no hunger except for a few ignorable pangs that passed quickly But I feel good even excerciseD and not dying – I made ginger and Lemmon tea and has normal tea so I don’t think I’m depleting electrolytes –

Pictures

So so frustrating to have Lost 5lb but not be able to see it in my body yet …
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Day 2 – May 3 2020

DAY – it’s a Sunday

Day 2 weigh in

WEIGH IN:

Time : 7:34am – 206.4 DOWN -2.4 lb

THOUGHTS Well it’s the start of Day 2 it was hard to sleep last night I was awake for a long time trying to sleep – apparently when fasted you have mental clarity need less sleep – I was restless agitated a bit but yeah otherwise ok . I intend to only focus on the present to be mindful in the day and to deal with today only – for I have grace enough for now –

PRAYER

God i feel like I can really do this ……but I know I need you – today I stand on the scripture that I can do all throngs because you give me strength in Christ … I can do this I will stand on your promise your Grace is sufficient for me ! For today For now ! in Jesus Name AMEN

EXCERCISE-100 Squats & Dumbell Arm lifts – 12 mins

HUNGER- very mild – to non – I’m definitely in keypads now as I had to keep brushing my teeth to get the horrible taste out my mouth that was the most uncomfortable part

FEELINGS Had some headaches but mild not much – I wanted to eat out of habit not out of hunger – I kept very busy all day so I wouldn’t get bored into eating for no reason.

I didn’t cry at all today – I felt strong I felt Gods hand over me – I continue to apply the blood of Jesus to any and every open door and ask Him to save me somehow – it hurt much less than yesterday … 2 days no contact – I’m still here β€”

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My allergic reaction on my neck is pretty bad I’m praying for full healing – Red dry scaly skin around neck , chest and face .

Day 1 – May 2 2020

Saturday

Tea and water fast First Day

Weight

Thoughts

Woke up and got on the scale – it was on 208.8 lb

That’s crazy I can’t believe I let myself get here AGAIN !!

I hate this so I’m gonna get a grip seriously like once and for all – I need to get some MIND power some will power or something cos I hate this yo-yo

HOLY SPIRIT HELP ME – give me some self control it is a fruit I. Need that

Prayer

God you promised to lead me and teach me into all things Your word says I have everything I need inside me for life and Godliness – please help me ……please detox my body and break this ridiculous soul tie – I can’t save myself Lord you have to save me from my enemies and from myself !

In Jesus Name AMEN

Goals

  1. I’m gonna try water fast for at least 10 days to start and see
  1. Detox my body and jumpstart weight loss (15lb)
  2. And Detox from Nasty Ex – break soul tie
  3. Praying for healing inside & out

Excercise – I did 100 squats at 1am – couldn’t sleep – couldn’t shut my brain down – I was wide awake and desperately trying to sleep

Hunger – Not much drank my Tea – green tea – black tea – water

Weight : 208.8 lb πŸ˜±πŸ˜±πŸ˜³πŸ™ˆ

FEELINGS

I cried a lot today a Lot – and was generally very sad – tried to keep busy and focused but still cried a lot

Listened to worship music most of today

Prayed and cried and prayed more – I did feel comforted now and again at my safest moments felt like the ministering angels came to me but I still cried and prayed JESUS no other words …

I hope God will fix me cos if not I’m doomed

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